When I was in middle school I had no self-esteem and hated myself as many of us did then etc etc… Then I decided one day that things would change. I never got bullied because I made sure that I was hanging out with the “right” kids, though to my credit, I never picked on anybody and I still had plenty of friends that I guess you’d call nerdy. I liked being in the middle of the road, hanging out with popular and unpopular kids. So high school was a pretty pleasant experience, to the point that by the time I was in college I had completely forgotten what it felt like to dislike myself, to feel humiliated or concerned about what other people may think. And one might say; Oh, how great it must be to not live or die on the approval of others! Okay. But what happened is that I became a cocky, arrogant, chauvinistic prick.
So I have made a list of things to get myself back to humility. I’m not a bad person, I just have quite a bit I need to work on. If I work on this self-improvement shit, then maybe I’ll have enough of my life figured out to get started on the bigger pieces like: where do I want to be in ten years, what am I looking for in a women, or, what do I want to accomplish before I die?